Don't Bully Me !

 

Somewhere, at sometime, there are still many children who get persistent unwelcome behavior from their friends, and some of these cases ignored by adults. Ironic, this makes me very sad, it's painful. Everytime I see that unwanted treatment, I always remember my childhood. Yah, I was being bullied too. 

I was a shy girl (very shy), because of that I became a slight smiling girl . I was  shorter than my friends (it is small I think). Maybe that's why they used to like to bully me. At the first time, at elementary school, I didn't have friends at all. It's common to join and play with other kids, but for me it's not. I had no confidence to started first. I was just sitting and waiting for some kids to invite me. Then, one by one came to me. They asked my name and we became friends. I was very happy. But, what's happened then? They directly insulted me, they say "You ugly, stupid, short", they teased me with embarrassing way, left me out on purpose, told other kids not to be friends with me. They also did physical bad treatments, they pushed me down, pinched me, hit me, even.... It's not just it, I even can't write on how disgraceful it was. I don't know what all the reasons they had to hurt me.
They tried to make me down repeatedly, they laughed when see me cried so much, it's likely they were so happy, then they left me alone. I didn't know what to do (how to avoid them). I had no idea why they did it to me.I couldn't stand it anymore, I promised to myself someday they would regret it. Someday, I would be better than now. 

Honestly, it's hard to keep my mind from worries about bully. Why are they happy to see other people down? Why do they always try to fear the weak people?. To be saved (for a while), I walked away and ignored them when we met (it's called run away). In the condition I might not get friends again, but I believe there's absolutely someone still who has pure heart and kindness and really want to be friend with me. Yah, I still had friend even if only one. It's alright since it's a kind one.

They said "You ugly!". I said to myself "There's nothing to do with them whether I am ugly or not, I will never show my smile to whoever said that." (I don't believe that I really did that? >,<). At least, such stuff doesn't make me desperate. They even did name-calling, it's really hurting me inside. They also yelled at me "You stupid! hahaha" (please, don't imagine it). Okay I committed to myself "Never mind if I can't change ugly to beautiful but I surely can change stupid to a smart. I will study hard, I will be a smart girl, get the number one, go to the good school, enter the good university, and I will show you how great I am." (what I was thinking?). And because I'm small, they teased me. Yoh, I can't do anything about my short-body,(even if I do jump, climb, and other exercises) this is inherited from my family and beautiful creation of God.

The biggest bully problem of mine is mentally attack.  Name-calling, avoiding and teasing. They don't know  how painful their actions can be. It can make a bully problem getting worse if I report to some adults, so I keep quiet. The stress of dealing with bullies always make me feel bad. I know, if this continue I would be a darkened heart girl, that always intend to get them pay back (the worst is to take revenge). I became angry, so angry. Meantime I just wanna get a lot of friends, make a wonderful memories and reach a better future together. (It's not dreaming). And I realized that:

"They, the bullies are the ones who don’t know how to handle their anger, frustration. They are looking for attention and by controlling you, they feel in command and strong." But why do they bully others? "Everyone of us has two main feelings, Love and Fear. Most of the times bullying occurs when in reality a bully is afraid of something. Bully might have faced rejection ,abandonment and even bullying by his own parents or siblings. To overcome that and to show a stronger personality among his/her peers he/she might start bullying others".

Someone who never get bullied make notes to bully :

“I’m also aware that you likely can beat the shit out of me.  You are stronger than I am.  You are bigger than I am.  But here’s something you don’t know.  No matter how hard you hit me, I will get back up.  You can hit me, right now, and I will fall down.  I might even bleed a little.  You might knock out a couple teeth or break my nose.  But I will get back up."

 Cool,(that's what I think after read that).  I wonder why I am so weak? I never speak anything when they bully me, I just cried. But it's okay, it had passed (my childhood), just a past. In this cruel world, the strength and weakness are always exist, I don't have to think those over and over. About weakness ,happy or wistful, none of them I feel. Nevertheless, I will do my best, I will try hard to everyone. No revenge, just wanna be a good person. For sake of myself, my parents, my siblings, my friends, and everyone who supports me. My bully was over when the first time I met Zuriko, a cheerful friend (with a bright smile), and had helped me so much for making friends. And also, that's the time I  started to change my mind, little by little. (It would be great if i added a background sound to make it dramatic, right?? XD)

For who still get bullied, treat them nicely, once they see you as a kind, nice and helpful person, they will change. Do your best you can. Make a wonderful life and be happy because life is too short to make it fruitless. Ganbare !! ^^